I am once again at this juncture in life.
In a short 2 months, I have come back to square one. My new job did not work out.
What I have not practiced religiously in terms of all the rituals in church during Lent, I lived it out spiritually in real life.
It was one of the most challenging Lent I have had in years.
I was frustrated. Frustrated mostly with myself for making the wrong decisions. I could have avoided all these predicaments and precious time wasted being unproductive for months. As my former colleague pointed out that it seemed to be the best option at that point in time, I can only concede and agree.
There is no time to look back in regret but instead I need to push myself moving forward in rebuilding my career.
And as Easter drew near, I felt especially hopeful attending the Good Friday and Easter masses.
The message in Fr. Simon’s homily gave me clarity – “Life is not about ME, I am about LIFE”. It is hard to love in this world without getting pushed back by skepticism. “Father, forgive them, for they do not know [that they were loved]”.
Thus, I have made the decision once again to choose life. All the money in the world cannot give me joy and happiness if purpose and passion is not present.
I figured that being paid well does not compensate for how disrespectful people treat me. The constant sense of insecurity and reminder of being dispensable cannot be justified by all the compensations promised.
I do not ask for much. I only asked to be allowed to work in an environment where those around me wants to play apart in ensuring my success and as do I for them. That is how a team suppose to be because my success contributes to the overall success of the team.
Oprah’s Super Soul Sunday interview with Elizabeth Lesser inspired me greatly.
We all do learn about ourselves constantly and during the interview, the famous quote by Hazrat Inayat Khan was mentioned. It made me realized that we are indeed uncovering the veils to reveal that original soul of ours.
Elizabeth’s definition of religion and spirituality was spot on – “Spirituality is the questions and Religion is the attempt to answer them”.
Like everyone else, I am searching for the “best fit” in life. But we’ll never know unless we try. Indeed, mistakes are the proof that we are all trying. It is not promised that everything will work out but if they don’t, I am sure there are valuable lessons in them.
Aren’t we all looking for a brighter tomorrow?
As the break of dawn brings new light, so does hope begins…
May you reign victorious just as Jesus reign victorious over death.