As I was driving home today, a question popped up. Is there such thing as a spiritual graduation? Perhaps the saints we canonized are the Valedictorians of the Spiritual University?
In all seriousness, do we ever figure it all out and graduate?
I would imagine God handing each one of us a scroll and while congratulating us, He says, “My child, it is time I let you go and trust that you will be steadfast in faith”.
Or is it a case of Him always wanting us to rely on Him like what most elders would want us to believe. Is the need for constant reliance and dependence divine or sowed by man? It seemed to me that our unworthiness is drilled in us through time – brainwashing so to speak. Each time we have done something good, we are reminded that we’re “poor sinners” and need to stay humble – also referred to as humility. Often times, I feel that the religion that I professed is similar to when someone caught a fish at the end of a fishing line. He reels in the fishing line enough just to let it go and as the fish seemed to have given up, he continues reeling the line in until finally, the fish surfaces and get caught in the net.
I am sure by now, anyone who is over religious would labelled me as someone under the influence of the devil. I beg to differ as I am not doubting and denying the existence of God but instead, I am just thinking out loud my conscious and legitimate concerns for man made beliefs and rituals.
We are always caught in a dilemma because there are some unexplained contradictions when it comes to the way we practice our faith. And I am a little jaded by the meaningless routines that has lost their purpose and starting to make no sense to me.
If it is music to the ears for most, whatever said that resonates and agreeable with us is considered prophecy. Or is it?
However, whatever that does not go down well with the norm, the devil gets blame for it. All these doubts are sowed by the devil as we like to convince ourselves whenever we are unable to address the questions and legitimate concerns regarding our faith. If we are unable to address a question or concern, wouldn’t it be considered a mystery?
A mystery is defined as something that is difficult or impossible to understand or explain. During a mass service, the word mystery is used and that made me wonder if we are indeed celebrating something that cannot be explained or understood? Are we doing something mysterious? In other words, is there a point in even doing something that is impossible to understand and explain?
Simply put, it seemed pointless to me.
But I want to reflect on the verses of 1 Peter 4:10-11:
10 Each of you should use whatever gift you have received to serve others, as faithful stewards of God’s grace in its various forms. 11 If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised through Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and the power for ever and ever. Amen.
The verses started off stating that we have all been given unique gifts which make us unique individuals. It is only contradicting that we adhere to rituals that require us to conform to uniformity.
I can never make sense of the reason why it is impose on us to fast and abstain lest we lose our “membership” for the non-conformance and abstention.
So, this repetitive mysterious ritual that we participate in, do we ever graduate from it?
If the mysteries are solved, can we put an end to our participation in it?
And how would the mysteries be considered solved?
When they are understood and successfully explained…