I recently watched a few youtube videos about some Country’s Got Talent. Looking beyond the commercialised talents, I believe each and everyone of us has got talent if not TALENTS.
Something struck my mind today as I was walking around in the mall. I just had this vision of a baby born in the gallows somewhere not too far away. The parents was holding to this baby sobbing away. And my thought switch to another scene right away. A scene of perfection. A baby all wrapped up nicely and both parents seemed to be delighted.
I believe the vision or thought gave me a profound reasoning. We are all brought into this world in so many different circumstances. The first vision was of hardship. Apparently the parents of the baby was overwhelmed with worries of how to bring this beautiful gift up well in such undesirable conditions.
An average mind would question the inequality and unfairness. I too find myself asking the reason why some of my peers are born into rich families whereas I have to struggle every step along the way.
But beyond all these, it made me believe very much that we are all here on earth for a reason. We have been blessed with so much talents. Sometimes we just do not know they exist or do not know how to make good use of them.
Whatever talents we have I believe we should use it well.
How do I know what talents I have? I usually get some hints and queues from people around me. So far many people has mentioned to me that I make a good writer. I can even remember a former supervisor now a dear friend telling me “You have got a flair for writing”.
And write was what I did. Until recently, an incident has really put me off writing and somehow, I felt that my talent was suddenly suppressed after deleting a blog that I have been writing for more than 2 years. It has a really bad impact on me personally.
After some time, I felt that I have to rediscover myself again and let my fingers do more working. I need to blog good stuff again. But this time, I really need to watch out what I blog and write. But the truth is, I am still uncomfortable not being able to express myself fully because there is still some restriction I have to impose on myself.
I blame it on the society that surrounds me. It is because this society that I am in suppresses freedom of speech and writing to some degree. We are free to express as long that we do not mention names. The problem is, although there are no solid basis for a defamation suit, people are just too conservative to take constructive criticism. Any sign of criticism would be taken too seriously. To be frank, I got a legal threat just because I blog about some company’s inefficiency and ineffectiveness in executing their project that I was also involved in.
Since then, I promise myself not to blog about work anymore.
Back to the topic of talent. I find myself possessing the talent but due to circumstances like these, I might have to stop myself from using it.
I believe the society that I live in should accept people for who they are. We have to look into their talents instead of their shortcomings to bring the best out of others. Unfortunately, a blunder like the one mentioned above may cost me my life. I may have lost my reputation with certain people.
It is sad how a majority of people will come down hard on you.
I told myself today that I will persevere no matter. I will continue to write because it gives me psychological relief. Somewhere to pen down my frustration, joy and whatever emotions I feel.
I just bought this book that I believe would answer my question – God Or Profit?